Muer Khao Ma, Chun Ja Pai

I chose to love you in silence, for in silence i find no rejection. i’ve chose to love you in my loneliness, for in my loneliness no one owns you but me.

I sometimes wonder if you left me because I had something too good. Maybe, I had this unmentionable gift that I wasn’t allowed to have. Maybe, I found something I was never meant to keep or know. I wonder if what we had was just too much, if it was supposed to be this sacred thing we were never supposed to find. I think I’m crazy. Maybe that’s why I can survive, because clearly – I’ve just lost my mind. Maybe, I’ve forgot time and space, and matter and anything that meant anything and I’m just circling my own world, pretending to be sane. What the hell is sanity? I don’t know it anymore.

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