Inexplicable Affairs Of The Heart

Expired

christabellez — Tue, 10 May 2011 02:53:39 +0000

Sometimes I wonder if I should shut this space down. It’s been left empty for way too long, it’s collecting cobwebs but yet im still reluctant. (warning: sentimental side coming out) I think it’d be the perfect location to host a party by halloween. Haha. Alright, back on topic. Does anyone even read my blog anymore? Should I do microposts frequently or long wordy posts with tons of photos like all the other bloggers? Let me know! Anyway, I’m more active on Twitter so follow me there!

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Bipolar

christabellez — Wed, 10 Nov 2010 01:04:20 +0000

We’ll say goodbye and you’ll walk away the way you always do. Then we’ll both pretend that nothing happened and we never knew each other. Because that’s what happens. You find people, and then you lose them. And it’s those goodbyes, the ones you thought you’d never have to say that hurt the most.

Muer Khao Ma, Chun Ja Pai

christabellez — Tue, 19 Oct 2010 03:27:38 +0000

I chose to love you in silence, for in silence i find no rejection. i’ve chose to love you in my loneliness, for in my loneliness no one owns you but me.

I sometimes wonder if you left me because I had something too good. Maybe, I had this unmentionable gift that I wasn’t allowed to have. Maybe, I found something I was never meant to keep or know. I wonder if what we had was just too much, if it was supposed to be this sacred thing we were never supposed to find. I think I’m crazy. Maybe that’s why I can survive, because clearly – I’ve just lost my mind. Maybe, I’ve forgot time and space, and matter and anything that meant anything and I’m just circling my own world, pretending to be sane. What the hell is sanity? I don’t know it anymore.

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christabellez — Sun, 10 Oct 2010 14:50:16 +0000

Boy: I broke up with her.

His Best Friend: What happened?

Boy: She’s just too much for me.

His Best Friend: What makes you say that? What did she do wrong?

Boy: Well, for one.. She only cared about her appearance. Always had to look good, always took forever to get dressed! So insecure..

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she wanted to keep your eyes locked on her? She wanted you to see that you have the prettiest girl under your sleeve and not think otherwise? I see..

Boy: Oh.. Well.. She’d often call me or text me asking where I am, who I’m with, telling me not to smoke, not to drink. She’s so clingy!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she cares about your well being? Because she cares about youa lot? And her greatest fear is losing you. I see..

Boy: But.. Uhh.. Well, she’d always cry when I say something slightly mean. She can’t handle anything. She’s a crybaby!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she has feelings? And because she just wanted to hear you say you love her? I see..

Boy: I.. Well! You know, she’d get jealous easily. I could barely talk to other girls! She’s so annoying! I had to hide it from her so she wouldn’t bitch about it.

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she just wanted you to commit to her? She thought you were faithful, but you lied so she could find out later and hurt even more? She just wanted the guy she loves the most to love only her. I see..

Boy: Well, she..

His Best Friend: You broke up with her because she’s good for you? She just wanted the best for you? She’s broken now because you were selfish. Are you proud?

Boy: I broke her heart.. Because I couldn’t see what was happening.. What happened to me?

His Best Friend: You lost the girl that loved you like no one else could. You see? You didn’t want her when all she ever wanted was you. THAT’S what happened.

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Think about it, when she’s too much for you.. She just wants the best for you. Because to her YOU’RE the best. If you don’t like something, talk to her about it. You mean so much to her. Don’t just give up. Don’t just leave because you want the easy way out. Ya’ Dig?

Saudade

christabellez — Sun, 03 Oct 2010 16:56:15 +0000

Saudade is a Portuguese word for a feeling of nostalgic longing for something or someone that one was fond of and which is lost. It often carries a fatalist tone and a repressed knowledge that the object of longing might really never return.

I will always love you ~

christabellez — Wed, 22 Sep 2010 22:45:54 +0000

Hello world. I’m supposed to be studying for my math paper tomorrow but I’m updating my blog from my iPhone & on the phone with @ZenshiroHideaki & @PrissyLala and she wants me to write that I love her. Bhb ttmx plOx.

Short update on my life :
• Dates with baby & lb89 & more~
• Dinner with Lala today @ e18hteen chefs. That girl needs to maintain ahhh~ <3

Can't remember anything else. LOL. Kkkx, I'll update when interesting things happen. Baibai~

Karma.

christabellez — Sat, 21 Aug 2010 13:55:05 +0000

Maybe I wasn’t asking you to love me, maybe I was asking you to understand. Because for so long I’ve been hurt, and for so long you’ve ignored it. And maybe it is bad timing, but maybe i don’t care. I’ve been here all along, just waiting, waiting for you to notice, waiting for you to care. Waiting for you to say that you’ve been waiting too. But you haven’t, and maybe you never will. Or maybe you’re afraid to. But it all hurts the same and in the end, I’m the one who’s left broken and crying myself to sleep. So screw the bad timing. I’ve loved you then, like I love you now, like I probably always will.

Back to my old theme. I still like minimalistic themes. Life hasn’t been all that great. But ohwellz! Suck it up bitch :> My blog is dying. So lazy to update. I’m on twitter much more. Hmm. Kill it or private it?

Is HE the one?

christabellez — Fri, 13 Aug 2010 12:46:11 +0000

Is He the One? 10 Signs to Tell If He’s Mr. Right:

1. Your friends approve- You’ll know he’s the right guy for you if your friends feel the same way. If your man hasn’t earned your friends’ stamp of approval, he might as well be waving a big red flag.

2. He gets along with your family- Introducing someone to your family can be awkward and tense— we can thank Ben Stiller for his excellent portrayal of all the worst-case scenarios. However, if he does mesh with the fam and becomes an instant member of your Dad’s “circle of trust,” then you’ll know he’s a keeper.

3. He listens to you- Communication is the foundation to any good relationship. If you’re trying to build a life with a guy who doesn’t think that what you have to say is important, your relationship will inevitably come crashing down. You need a man who truly listens to you.

4. You share the same values- You may say “tomay-to” while he says “tomah-to,” but there is no need to call the whole thing off. Just be certain that you both agree on what matters most in life. Finding a man who shares your ideals will make for a smooth ride.

5. He’s the type of person you would be friends with- You should have the same standards in your love life as you do socially. If you’re dating a guy who you would never be friends with, you might not be a good fit long-term.

6. You trust him- Without trust, your relationship is doomed to fail. If you can honestly say that you trust your man, you may have just found Mr. Right.

7. He makes you feel special- We all know that new-relationship high a little too well, but those feelings tend to dwindle as the days and months progress. If your man is still able to give you butterflies well into the relationship, then you’ve hit the jackpot.

8. He talks about the future- In your search for Mr. Right, you have to remember that he is also looking for a Mrs. Right. If your significant other verbalizes his thoughts on your future together, then it’s likely that he’s also considering you to be that special someone.

9. You feel secure- A man who is financially unfit may not be a good life partner. If your significant other can’t even take care of himself, how will he be able to take care of others? While we don’t recommend gold digging your way to your next boyfriend, we do think it’s important to feel secure in your relationship and in your financial future together.

10. He loves you for you- Surprisingly, this part has to come from you, not him. If you aren’t being true to yourself in a relationship, then he isn’t falling for the real you. Although we all want to be seen as perfect, the facade will eventually crumble. Be yourself and if he still loves you, you know he’s here to stay.

答应我你会好好过不让这些眼泪白流

christabellez — Fri, 30 Jul 2010 14:00:15 +0000

Whenever you missed how i always cared for you, whenever you remember the love we once shared and held on to, when you think back of all the times i was there for you, just remember; i never left. i was always here. it was you that never held on to us in the first place. Goodbye love.

We gotta fight for this love

christabellez — Thu, 15 Jul 2010 07:31:55 +0000

He is a man made up entirely of your excuses. And the minute you stop making excuses for him, he will completely disappear from your life.

I’m tired. Tired of every dream and expectation i had falling to pieces before my eyes. I wish people had been honest with me. I wish they’d tell me to prepare myself for a life time of disappointment and heartbreak. Everyone’s heartbroken nowadays. But I mean, we all just have to move on. What’s the point of reminiscing when you know the person is no longer worth while; when they’re no longer who they used to be? When their heart is somewhere else? Do you think they still care for you, or are still thinking about you? Because frankly, they don’t. I suppose we’re all a bit lonely and broken. I suppose most of us just go through life, waiting for things to get better. For some they do, for others they don’t. I reckon it’s up to us to make the best out of it. Question is, am i strong enough to try?